I’m not a big writer of poetry, but I stumbled recently across this short poem that I wrote a couple of years ago. I’d just spent a long day in the office at my previous job and was in the middle of a three hour train commute home. I felt absolutely rotten and found myself pulling out my pad and pen to try to express how I felt.
It was only when I read the poem back to myself a few days later that I realised how urgently I needed to change the way I lived. And now, a couple of years on, you’ll be relieved to hear that I’m much happier and working hard to live my kind of life. Anyway, enough waffle. Here’s the poem. It’s called ‘The Roar’.
I hear a quiet voice from deep
somewhere inside my soul.
It tells me that I’m going too fast;
the roar is in control.
This constant drive to be the best,
my fervent need to win.
The voice wants me to still the roar,
to let the silence in.
I try to listen to the voice,
to what it has to say.
But soon the roar just drowns it out
as life gets in the way.
The roar gets louder, louder still;
leaves chaos in its wake.
In time, the means becomes the end –
a roar for roaring’s sake.
What is this life I choose to lead,
indentured to the roar?
Why can’t I listen to the voice
and be myself once more?